“We never change, do we?
We never learn, do we?” –Coldplay
It seems like I am constantly making the same mistakes; playing the victim
to my own bad habits. I am getting pretty
tired of it. Are we incapable of
change? I would like to think it
sometimes. That way I can blame nature
rather than myself when I screw things up or act in a regretful manner. But the truth is – the only thing we cannot
change is our past. If we truly want to
be different, better, wiser, richer, or what have you; the power to do so is in
our own hands.
Dalat-Nha Trang Highway, Vietnam |
Making a change is not easy though.
It is something I struggle with immensely. There is so much about myself or my life I
wish I could change. I am constantly saying
things like, “I want to lose weight,” or “I wish I had more patience,” or “I
will not lose my temper,” but I never seem to DO anything more than state my
desire…and get frustrated with myself when I commit the same habitual mistakes.
Hoi An, Vietnam |
Well, as Bob Dylan so eloquently stated: “the times, they are a
changing.” It seems my time in the
Middle East is drawing to a close. I
know a change in location does not fix things that are broken (however small or
large they may be); but it will provide for a “fresh start” if I commit the
effort to making those positive changes I keep talking about. I think it is about time I stop talking the
talk and start walking the walk.
Dalat, Vietnam |
I won’t make a huge proclamation like; “from this day forward I will be
good, I will be kind, I will be patient, I will eat healthfully, I will
exercise, etc, etc, and so on.” If I do that, I will never grow to be the
person I would like to be. I think the
first thing I need to do is come to terms with my flaws, accept the things
about me that are not so great, and think about what ways I can improve the
things I want to change in a realistic manner.
I would like to learn to celebrate the things that are good in my life
and accept the things that are not so good as a challenge & an opportunity
to improve. It is something I will have to work on every day; and if I fail
today, tomorrow I will try again.
Danang, Vietnam |
(Yes, I did post random pictures from Vietnam to distract from the actual content herein & lighten the tone. We are working on positivism here, y'all.)
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