“We never change, do we?
We never learn, do we?” –Coldplay
It seems like I am constantly making the same mistakes; playing the victim to my own bad habits. I am getting pretty tired of it. Are we incapable of change? I would like to think it sometimes. That way I can blame nature rather than myself when I screw things up or act in a regretful manner. But the truth is – the only thing we cannot change is our past. If we truly want to be different, better, wiser, richer, or what have you; the power to do so is in our own hands.
|Dalat-Nha Trang Highway, Vietnam|
Making a change is not easy though. It is something I struggle with immensely. There is so much about myself or my life I wish I could change. I am constantly saying things like, “I want to lose weight,” or “I wish I had more patience,” or “I will not lose my temper,” but I never seem to DO anything more than state my desire…and get frustrated with myself when I commit the same habitual mistakes.
|Hoi An, Vietnam|
Well, as Bob Dylan so eloquently stated: “the times, they are a changing.” It seems my time in the Middle East is drawing to a close. I know a change in location does not fix things that are broken (however small or large they may be); but it will provide for a “fresh start” if I commit the effort to making those positive changes I keep talking about. I think it is about time I stop talking the talk and start walking the walk.
I won’t make a huge proclamation like; “from this day forward I will be good, I will be kind, I will be patient, I will eat healthfully, I will exercise, etc, etc, and so on.” If I do that, I will never grow to be the person I would like to be. I think the first thing I need to do is come to terms with my flaws, accept the things about me that are not so great, and think about what ways I can improve the things I want to change in a realistic manner. I would like to learn to celebrate the things that are good in my life and accept the things that are not so good as a challenge & an opportunity to improve. It is something I will have to work on every day; and if I fail today, tomorrow I will try again.
(Yes, I did post random pictures from Vietnam to distract from the actual content herein & lighten the tone. We are working on positivism here, y'all.)